Looking through 2008...

It nearly the end of 2008...
And I just started sitting down and looking back the years it had been
It was a simple an hour of pondering ...
And fastly rewinding the events...

It had been a nice year...
Lot of happening..lot of events...
That means a lot to me....

I currently back to the first day of 2008....
And I will be going down the lane slowly the next few days...
Hopefully documenting the good, the bad and the extraordinary of 2008
Until back to the fianl day of 2008....

I'm slowly walking back 2008.....
Starting from now....

What they feel...

I was browsing through one of my favourite site to see picture...
I crossed by this picture...
Nothing great about it...
Very amateur collection...

Yet what captured me was the story behind it...
It was titled..
"Toilet paper have feeling too"...

It was not the faces that being drown on the toilet paper...
But it is about the real feeling of being a toilet paper...
Being the thing that will be used for something...
Something Nobody wish they will born to do it...
Yet that what the toilet paper is...
They are meant to be doing that...
And that is their objective in life...

So as I was looking at the picture...
I had a mixed feeling of funny, touched and grateful...
Funny for what the direct story of the picture...
Touched to realised that the toilet paper sacrificed to do what they do...
And grateful....for not being a toilet paper...

It was not as simple as just a toilet paper ...
It is just the surface....
I guess lot of us...especially me had take a lot of things for granted....

Like...do we ever aware, who was the one who collect all our rubbish...
Do we aware that someone at this time...are back in sinar jernih handling our waste...
And we are not the one who have to work to do this...

Have we ever stand at the corridor...
and look at that cleaner who clean the toilet...sweep the floor...
I sometime complained the job I have...
How tiring, underpay, and how bad sometime the treatment I had...
Yet I always forget....the others around me....
Who are worse than I am...
They are just around me....
Most are much older than me...
And much more experience in life than I am...
Yet they never really much...ungrateful of life....

Hopefully..
This picture ...reminded us..me and you...
To realise how lucky we are,,,and how we suppose to be bersyukur for what we have....
This is a simple lesson..
Of a toilet paper....

p/s:-raya korban is just 2 days away...for those who "mampu"...do qurban for the mercy reason...may allah bless us

The tiny reminder....

Some people asked me..
Why did I choose to do pediatric...
They wondered ...isnt it hard and terrible to work with kids...
That tiny miny little things...
They dont speak..they cant tell what the problem
Their vein are small....their heart too...
The illnesses are complicated...
The medication too...
They are so fragile..
They are sensitive....

So why do I choose to be stucked in here..?

I always give all the reason that I could think of...
They don't complain...so they dont bug me...yet the parents do..infact..that the hardest part...
They don't complain...so they dont mind im taking the blood....yet they moved, they cried, the tiny vein just collapse and bunk...
The diseases are interesting.....yet interesting enough, sometime we dont know what is the problem...

They are cute little things.....they are honest....they are amazing....they are magical....and I guess...that what is true about it....

It was last wednesday.
And I was oncall that day...
Was suppose to take the routine weekly blood for this tiny premature baby...
Who had this list of problem that he suffered...

So as I made my way to meet him...
Before I could switch on the light..
I was amazed to see him....
He look so calm inside...
He look so safe..
He look so alive....
And at that time...I always know...I had choosed the right path...

It is hard to explain ...
Why I choose this field...
But being with them...
Doing what I'm doing..
I feel so much satisfied...
So much in love..
and so much human...
And always reminded by how great Allah the Almighty is...

So I can't help but to share his calmness and tranquility,
Despite all the trouble and problem he had suffered...
Allah make him survived..
and protect him...safe and calm...as we can see....

Hmm..about the blood taking....
Being human...I decided...I will leave him alone..
Until the morning come....